These last three days I feel so used up. Not that it's new, but... I think I cannot go on like this. I stay up until 3am and sleep until 2pm the next day, sitting on my comp be it drawing or surfing and not doing the slightest physical activity to keep my musles from deteriorating. I eat not because I'm hungry, but because I'm bored and got nothing better to do. My shoulder, neck and hands are stiff.. these all can't be good. I know I'm wasting myself to eat away the pain and loneliness... but I need to change. Of course it's utter bullshit if I want to radically change my way of life the way Jack Osbourne did with his... he can afford all of that and getting more money at the end from his new body and image xD. I'm not gonna get paid if I ever life my days differently starting tomorrow.. but if I don't, I'm going to PAY hell lot. With me health... my ever worse long best friend - depression.
I feel so lonely since Denny and Tim are away. It's hard to tryto be strong when you're lonely, but I have no choice. There's no use in making things worse, I suposse.
So now I'm going to bed, hoping that tomorrow I'll do sport again. Just like last week.